SInce all my friends decided to celebrate New Year away from little me with their families, I agreed to celebrate with my familiy and their friends.
The day started with Bruce Springstein Live in Dublin and ended with songs from the 70ies, Daddy Cool, and so on.
Btw, I am slightly drunk. All mistakes and senseless ramblings are to blame on the five bottles of red wine plus champagn.

Some old family friends are visiting us. Originally two couples but one had to leave because of a family emergency. I wish them all my best and hope all goes well.
That leaves only one couple, who are like a second family to my brother. Sadly they didn't bring their boys. They are both really cool and fun. One is my age - and I am slightly into him. I guess it's only the idea of him, because we used to make out when we were younger. I had my first kiss with him. I was a game of truth and dare. It started with an innocent kiss, but we ended up frensh kissing. LOL. We had lots of fun after that, too. Anyway we were never together and only fooled around. Still, he's hot ad cute. He has a younger brother, whos funny as hell. Very cool person to be around.
They get that from their father, who is downstairs drunk.

OMG, I totally forgot how much fun it is to party with the parents. It's amazing. All of them are drunk. Rediculously happy drunken people, dancing and rocking to the music. Giggling, laughing and dancing all night long.

Midnight was spent at the sea, watching the fireworks from the other side of the coast. I like watching them - from far away. And today I remembered why I stay away from fireworks. Some idiot shot one of in our direction and it went off right behind me. I admit I was a bit shaken after that. Our dog stayed amazingly calm though, although there where bright lights all around him.
This years motto is: More fun less worries.

Hope it turns out that way.
Love.
Lia

Once again I am staring at a white blank page at three a.m.
I don't know what's going on but I am not liking it.
Infact, I hate it. Personally, I'd rather be sleeping by now.
But I can't. It's frustrating. Even more so, because I love sleeping.

Maybe I dont love sleeping that much, but the laying in bed cuddled up under the blankets in the darkness.
Maybe I truely only like that part of going to bed.
However, I am restless. Not because I might miss things while I sleep. What's there to miss at three a.m. laying in bed?
Still, I can't shut down my mind. There are so many things going round in circles in my head that it prevents me from relaxing my mind.
I didn't have a stressful week, I don't have to meet any deadlines. Basically, I am leading a very calm life at the moment.

My eyes are getting heavy, and my brain is slowing down, but I know the moment I try to sleep I am wide awake again.
I don't understand it.
Anyhow, trying to sleep again, and if that doesn't work I am going to stare into the darkness listening to the whirlwind of my thoughts.
Hoping I might drown in it to finally get some rest.

Lia

Today was the second saturday this month that I had to spend at UNI attending classes.
Last week I had my praxis seminar in the museum and it's brilliant. Not the class. In comparison to the rooms in the museum it was quite boring.
The museum is installed in a château. Which in itself is fascinating and overwhelming. It comes to mind that the offices in that place have to be equally charming.
Of course they are not as well kept nor as restored as the public rooms, the spirit is still kept nevertheless.
High pillard walls, ceiling decorated with stucco, wooden floores that make noises whenever you dare to take a step....
In the middle of the room a large wooded table without any chairs, the electronic equipment was hiding in a corner...
This set up create a really nice working atmosphere, and we were focused, so time flew by.
In the break we went strolling through the castle hunting paintings and skulptures, when we came across the ball room.
Oh, my...It wasn't a particular grand room, or richly decorated. It was just a relatively simple ballroom. Without the colourfull stucco on the ceiling, no representive paintings on the walls or any other form of presenting prestige and power. In a sense it was a very understated ballroom. But the feeling while standing in the middle of it. I could see the people dancing infront of my eyes. other guest watching from the gallery...dreams....

Today I had a five hour long seminar on art in the 1980ies. Listening to six speeches is tiring especially in an overheated room while it's snowing outside. SNOWING OUTSIDE!!! Just the fact that it was snowing outside put a damp on my mood...but i stayed till the end. I am proud of that, because my "friends" abandoned me after the break. What kind of friends are you??? Anyway, it was mostly annoying because my comments on various themes and ideas where stuck in my big head and are lost by now, just because I didn't get them out in the open. ARGH...there was something about Platon and the reproduction of the idea, because the idea itself is not available??? See, I lost it.

But the class inspired my for my mum's christmas present. I am going to take her to an exhibition in Cologne. If she's free on a certain date than I can even pay for train tickets. And I want to pay for those, cause she helped me soo much this year!! It's the Gerhard Richter exhibition and his painted paintings - not is painted photographs - are going to be amazing. I am not a huge fan of abstract art, but this could be different. The paintings are HUGE. The experience standing infront of one of those huge paintings has to be amazing...

I'm still not tired. What more could I do

So me being sick and in the need of cheering up, decided that I will write done - no, it actually has to be start to write down - all the places I want to go some day. This list goes together with my Grand Tour project, which my new friend S. joined and I am so happy about that, because travelling alone sucks. Anyway I am posting this today. Please note, that the list is ONLY about architecture. There are some museums on there, too, but museums that are relevant or well known for their architecture.
( This List is not finished yet )

Those are only places out of one book about architecture and I will look through two more in the future. Plus city guides and so on. It only includes Europe, since the original Grand Tour was a european thing. Actually there were only four or five cities that one would travel while being on a grand tour (Wien, Rom, Florenz...basically the big art centers), but they would stay for months.
I am calling this list Grand Tour, because it represents the original idea of travelling to the artistic centers of europe and get an education about the culture, the art, the music, the lifestyle and so on. I want to travel Europe in this sense, too, but decided to expand the list to all intereseting places in europe. And then the rest of the world. Should I ever have that much money.

I am going to make myself another tea. I drank through my whole tea collection today. And I have alot of tea!
Lia

I had my first spanish lesson today!! YAY!! It was great *bounces around*

My prof he's way cool. At the beginning he just kept talking spanish. Real quick plus accent. Everytime someone came in he would smother them with question. And no one had a clue about what to say. So they answered in German and they were so flustered. LOL. We are a beginners class, but it was amusing nonetheless.

( Since, at least two thirds of class... )


Next topic. Uh, I have to do that in German:
Die sehr spezifische und unglaublich spannende - nein, atemberaubende - Aufgabe, welche uns der genial Dozent gestellt hat, ist es ein Wort in den deutschen Sprachgebrauch einzuführen. Alle 500 Studenten sollen in den nächsten Tagen dieses Wort verwenden und so gebräuchlich machen. Der Haken? Keiner weiß was das Wort wirklich bedeutet.
Das Wort um das es geht heißt:

( g-r-u-m-p-f-e-n  )

Irgendwelche Ideen was es sonst bedeuten könnte??

Lia

We had some great couple of years together - this is for you:

I remember one day we went hiking. It was a hot summer day and our families were walking through the countryside for hours. The both of us decided to act out Hamlet by Shakespear. Two persons were very excited about this idea - you and me - the other three prospect participants - not so much. Still we tried to persuade them into joining this great fun. In the end, we ended up in the garden alone sitting by the lake reading Hamlet out of a huge all pieces of Shakespear book.

How you managed to get to NZ and back before me, although it was totally my idea. And how, when I finally made it to NZ - the huge NZ with the two islands, the beautiful ever changing countryside - I found the very same old secondhand bookstore you bought your books and I bought mine in.

That when we had a crush on Ewan McGregor, we decided to move to Scottland. Because it had mountains, cliffs, no hurricains or other catastrophies. End no wesps.

When books started to impress us so much to change our believes. Let's create our own religion and inform the author about it. Actually receiving a response from said author.
Reading books for twelve year olds, when we were only eight to ten. charishing that book so much that one has to be afraid that the worn out pages will fall apart should one touch it today. Fighting over the colour of the cuttlery, depending on the colour that resembled our favourite characters.

Me inventing a new action hero for you. And actually drawing him. Pizza-Man!!! To bad I lost those pics...

Thank you for making me a better person. Thank you for introducing me to J-Rock and the harajuku district. Thank you for keeping me grounded and humble when I am starting to lose my touch to reality. Thank you for all the wonderful times we sat together watching PotC drinking tea. Thank you for being my friend.

*hugz and kisses*
Lia

I was actually looking forward to attend my courses today. I shouldn't have been so positve and excited. Because my day sucked. Totally, absolutly sucked. I don't think I can put it in words how upset and disappointed I am about this day.

Why do you have an online programme that allows you to take classes that you aren't allowed or supposed to take? How is that possible??
So when I chose my course load I logged in and informed myself about what's available. So far so good. There is actual information about what level that couse is - supposed to be. I didn't see anything wrong with it and applied.
Only to be in a room with students that are years ahead of me!! YEARS! Wtf? How could that have happened? why can I apply to a course that is over my own level. Why is there no information about this? Thank god, I found two girls with the same problem and I already know them - we are going to work together in the following two weeks. We are on probation somehow - to see how it works out.
Naturally we have to hold a speech - together, god bless the prof - so we went to the library to check the books, in order to get an idea what we got ourselves into. Of course someone else already borrowed the book and it's due back on Nov. 6th. We have to hold our speech on Nov. 4th. So yeah...were beyond happiness and frustration. Emergency meeting tomorrow with the prospect off dropping that class two days after the term started....

But that's not even all off it. No my day continued. A lecture about expressionism followed. Which is a very interesting topic, but not when you have to squeez youself into a very limited space with at least 80 other students in a tiny room.
What did they expect?? Only offering six lectures at all for all the art history students. All off them!!! SIX lectures...*sigh* The prof is looking for a new room. Now? You're starting to look now??? You've known for weeks how many students wanted to attend your lecture and you're only looking now for a bigger room???
The actual lecture was quite good, apart from the used air that slowly tried to suffocate us all but only succeeding in breaking our concentration.

Finally, it was to be the highlight of my day. My spanish class. The prof didn't attend. We sat and waited. Fifteen minutes. Half an hour. An hour. Went to the secretary, who naturally had no idea about what' going on....Brilliant!!

---stupid online programme----getting everything mixed up------argh---
Lia

I am back at Uni and the workload is already threatening. In reality it probably isn't but to my mind it seems that there is a lot of work ahead of me. I left home late, because of HP. I don't think I have to explain this particular issue. It' just HP. Anyway my notebook is working again, so I am happy. I am pretty sure I ran round wearing a goofy smile while dancing an spinning around all day when I fixed it. I was rediculously happy.

But let's recap and start at the beginning, shall we?

( Last monday )
Didn't do anything over the weekend, but to prepare myself mentally for the very exhausting task of starting the semester. Very exhausting...
So today:
Communication: Met a lot of freshmen year students who were - well - nervous. I don't think I was that nervous on my first day. Btw, we'll be learning online, with a programme that seems to be overly complicated. I am going to need the whole semester to figure out how it is supposed to work. Anyhow as a business communication student it is my duty to converse with others. So that's what I did. I talked to the girl next to me. Maybe she started the conversation, I'm not sure...But we got talking. And we clicked. Right away. We are very similar. VERY similar. It's totally scary, weird and therefor cool. I dig weird things.

Now I have a friend for my love for tear - I can hold a tea party. YAY! A friend for my coffee addiction, football and baller hottnesses. Drool. A friend to talk about travelling and history. LE GRAND TOUR. where's the money when you need it? And as a new addition someone who shares my love for fanfiction and the english language in general. So I'm cool for now.

On another note I can't find any pictures about my home players. *pout* I have to look some more....I am determined to find pictures of my fav keeper.

Gotta run and start my reading.
Lia

Not a word. Not a word about football. Not about that match.
I have to admit that 5:0 is - well - tough. I am shocked about the abyssal performance of the FCK. I mean, what..? just...ahh...the defence! Where was the defence?? Not there. Correct.
Yes, I did notice that they had some troublesome minutes in the defence in the already played matches, but never a whole game. Let's hope that they put things straight in their next match. After all, it was a horrible defeat that can happen to any team.
Check out Barca vs. Atleti on the weekend: 6:1. There are good days, and then there a bad days. Hope they learn from that, and keep up the hard work.

On another note: Liverpool won! YAY the weekend wasn't all bad...Good for Torres to score two more goals, sucks to be Skrtl. Praying it isn't too bad. But maybe Agger will be playing again now. How come there are so many pretty defenders out there??

Btw, I am losing the rest of my almost none existant hope in the Hewlett-Packard Customer and Support Service. I mean, wthatt? trying to raise hopes by giving halfway decent shipping dates, just to crush them by not meeting them at all. I don't think I have to mention that the recovery cds still didn't arrive - and possibly never will.

Ok. So i called HP Support Service on the 24th od September about my notebook and they said they would send the recovery discs in the next 10 days. Ans so far - nothing. I am still hoping that they will arrive on monday. But I have my doubts. I haven't heard anything good about them sticking to the promised shipping dates.

On another note, I watching a lot of football lately. Well, I have nothing better to do and I noticed some seriously hot german players. And I don't mean the well recognized hottness of Podolski and Co., but some new young yummy players. And since my team (1.FCK) plays in der Zweiten Bundesliga, I spent double the amount on watching pretty footballers getting sweaty. Maybe I am going to introduce them sometime - but first, I think I have to research them some more.

Anyone saw Bayern vs. Bochum today? Well. I am quite happy with the result. Because I am not necessarily a fan of Bayern. Not at all. Anyway, I only feel a little sad because of Klinsi. I like him. He's somehow likeable....

Btw, I hope we win tomorrow, because we are having a good run. And more points than at the end of last seasons first half. That in it self is brilliant, cause no matter what we have those points.

I just read a Spiegel Article about the FCK and it says something about the support and it made me laugh:

Beim 4:1 gegen den FC St. Pauli waren in dieser Saison fast 42.000 Zuschauer im Stadion, gegen den Abstiegskandidaten FSV Frankfurt fast 38.000. In der vergangenen Saison, als die Mannschaft im Abstiegskampf der Zweiten Liga mehr taumelte als spielte, straften die Fans das kopflose Team oft mit Liebesentzug. Für Kaiserslauterer Verhältnisse waren weniger als 20.000 Besucher erbärmlich, die Stimmung auf den Rängen unterirdisch.

Basically it says that now there are almost 42.000 supporters in the stadium, last season when we were fighting to survive in der Zweiten Liga there were only 20.000.
LOL. Great support. I think it was Leverkusen vs. Hertha today and there were only about 20.000 supporters. And they play in the first league!! and they are well known clubs!!

So. Emailed my professors about my assignments. One says its ok if i send it in late. The other one is furious - absolutly furious. Because apparently i should have sent it in on the 10th. WTF? the 10th?? I'm in shock. Really. I sat there staring at the display. Mouth wide open. The 10th, really?? Well, shit. How could that have happened??

If that mail hadn't concerned me, I would have laughed at it. Because it's a brilliant piece of mail. It makes me feel guilty, sloppy and stupid...and that's exactly what he wanted to achieve.  I am so embarressed by this...


*hangs head in shame*

He is old, moody, somewhat arrogant and most importantly the dean.
I promptly dropped his course for this semester. Better to not remind him that there is this sloppy and stupid student in his course.
Plus, I argued with him in my last course with him. Well, it was more like a loud discussion, but I don't think I was very respectful...
It's just that he makes me so frustrated.

But, it's ok that I sent my text in late. he's just docking to points of my grade. Great. What did I expect. Better a bad grade, than a failure. Right??

Oh, wow. I haven't updated in over a year. I certainly didn't feel that long...
Anyway right now chaos found its way back into my life. And here i thought I lost it for good...
So, Uni starts in about a month. Which has me looking for courses and looking for a new living space. If that isn't bad enough, I still have to write two assignments, and my notebook is not cooperating - at all. I had to reboot it, of course everything went wrong and now it's still not working. It made me almost cry, when I started it and there was nothing - nothing at all...It is kind of scary how much one can love a notebook - I am deeply disturbed and strangely fascinated by it...anyhow, it's leaving me without internet and having to argue with my brother about whose turn it is to use my parents pc...not pretty...

Naturally all the data for my assignments were on it and I had to redo all my work. Rewriting an already completed 15 pages-long assigment about Johann Gottfried Schadow, his portraits and the fight with Goethe had me bouncing with joy...of course I didn't manage it in time and I sent it in a week too late. Thank god, the professor okayed it! But now I am behind my timetable for the other two assigments and I have to send them in on tuesday!!! How am I supposed to do that??
Now the first one, an 8 paged assignment about the Jewish Museum in Berlin is at least half finished. Although I might have to twist my thesis about Daniel Libeskind creating a new kind of museum a bit. But it should be manageable - after all, it's only 8 pages, right??
The real problem is the assignment about a film. Choose a film and analyse it after a certain aspect. I don't even have the film yet, and I haven't seen it before. And of course I decided not to analyse colour or sound but the narrative. which basically means taking everything into account....

On a personal level. My mom is sick, the dog doesn't behave and it's cold, sooo cold. How can it be so cold? It's September!! It's supposed to be slowly cooling down, but no - it's like it's freaking winter already. Or maybe it's just me, after being sailing in Greece?? The fact is I am feeling cold and drank too much tea for it being the end of september. On the positive side: Football started again, which means the whole family (minus mom) sits together and watches the matches. And miraculously, but my team is actually winning. And playing good, almost attractive football. It's a huge improvement!! And the supporters are very thankful. Proof: Almost 40,000 in the stadium. YAY! I just hope it last...

But now it's back to Daniel Libeskind and the JMB.

Seven days of school left. I should feel great shouldn't I, but somehow I don't. Ah, I am sick about writing about school so I won't.

Registered at StudiVZ, and I can't believe how hard it is to find a nice picture of me for  my profile picture.  Either I look stupid, or I don't like the pictures in which  I have short hair.  There are just no up to date pictures of me. But I added a couple of my friends, so that's fun.

Uh, my brother is annoying me. he has his own comuter, but always uses our main computer where all the pictures are at. And that stops me from finding a nice one. He is just stupid. Duh - I wanna smack him....I would but he is stronger than I am...

Still reading Murakami and I just love his style of writing.

Apart from that nothing much happened  - I still don't now what to do.

Liv

My best friend is back from Japan. I so wanted to go with  her.
That's why we've decided that I am in desperate need of a smog therapy (the air at the sea is just too healthy) and therefore need to go to Tokyo immediately. Of course I can't go alone, as I don't know my way around the city, so she will have to come with me. Too bad for her... ^_^

Apart from that 19 days of school left. 1 math test. And the oral exam. In June I will be done. Yay!!

Two weeks to finish our school project on Bertolt Brecht. Started recording yesterday. We still need to record another part and cut everything. Hope we'll get it done in time. But with my team mates I doubt that. I could kick them to the moon. All three of them. But I would keep the other two, course they are nice and good to work with.

Started to buy books from 21 japanese authors. Bought 8 books from 3 different authors. Looking forward to reading them. Bought them in German, cause reading in English annoys me at the moment. I am not calm enough.

I get the impression that my English is getting worse. I am forgetting words. That's frustrating. I need to get out of the country. But 3 weeks in the US won't be enough to fix that, I am afraid. I miss NZ. Loved the smell and the countryside. How can you not?

Oh, by the way, it's summer! Got my first sun burn on Friday. It is too early to be that warm - it's going to be a long summer. Well, the bathing season starts tomorrow. The Baltic Sea should be about 16 degree warm/cold.

Liv

A couple of days have passed and I still can't decide what to do with myself.

That's why I went through a book which lists all course you can take at a German University.

The most funny thing I found so far was International Wine Economy. ^^
Too bad that I don't drink wine.

Apart from that everything else is just way too serious. Well, it is a serious topic, but still.

I think I could do Asia Science, but not too sure about that. Huh, I am not sure about anything.

It is frustrating. School is frustrating. 21 days of school left. Not that much actually.

And after that. Oral exam. And then? Boom. Nothing.

I am scared but excited - does that make sense?

Liv

This night I couldn't sleep, so I decided to sit down and clear my head.
And I came to the conclusion to stick to the  publishing idea and do my internship.
I only have to decide what to study now.
But I finally searched for flats in Stuttgart.

After that I went to bed and dreamt that I was pregnant. Very funny experience. ^-^

Liv

I know that in the next couple of weeks I  need to make a decision about my future.
I have known this for three years - and tried to be prepared, but I am not.

What am I going to do with my life after I finish school?
There are so many jobs that I find interesting, but I can't see myself actually working in these jobs.
So many things to study - but I am not satisfied.

Law, Psychology, Medicine, Socialmanagement, Economics, Tourism, Publishing....

Everything is interesting but  not what I picture myself in doing in ten years.

So how am I going to make a decision?

Thought about doing a gap year. Going back to New Zealand,  or Australia or  England.
Problem with that is that I have an internship with a publishing company starting in august, which would also be the date to leave the country for the gap year.
Right now I am not looking forward to the internship, either. I don't even have a place to life, yet.
So if I decide to do the gap year, then I lose the internship. Which could be a great opportunity - or not.

I jut don't know what to DO. I am desperate.

1. Tidy up my room
2. organize history study material
3. study history
4. study math - mäh, don't want to
5. do my homework - Knew I should have done that yesterday

6. find a place to live
7. find university for english literatur

Hi hi,

welcome to my LJ. I am going to write in German and English - depending on my mood.
But that's it for today. Got a headache. To much alcohol is baaad.
liv